my room is too small even if it's too big sometimes
i know every little bit of it
close my eyes and still see it
mom's waching TV
i can feel that misterious glowing behind the wall
pain is untrue
but you will be always reminded in time

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i am schizophrenic
and i stop looking into the eyes
i don't want to know the truth
so is my mind
it creates me a model of my being
sedated and empty
otherwise it is pain and need

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hate to wake up
it is always so prommising to sleep
all dreams, feelings, thougts..stop
human being is harmless by nature
thinking is what makes evil

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ok mom, i will try to stand up now
be usefull, care...
just need some time to start
more time...

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sorry we're out of that
come back later
shaking on the way back
shoot me if you please
nobody will ever know
life belongs to everyone
you're just using it
by any means
no matter what
all the fucking time

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why do i show all that feelings?
i never realy felt any of that ways.
and then it always one day after another
as predictable as it always seemed to be...

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always a pleasure to forget something
or everything?
my doctor gives me medication
i insist on lobotomy
i can imagine how happy such people are
useless violence always makes children smile
oh look that boy is blue all over!
someone call the ambulance!

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why is it always so hard to just keep going?

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to save a human life
to make him look around again
maybe everything will get better
bollocs!
it is nothing but a terrible act of violence
act of THINKING
in the name of what!?
what a shame indeed
a horrible loss they will say..
heh...you know..i finaly can't look into your eyes no more..
heaven is too close to hell
oh well, whatever..
society excist because of fear
end of the evolution guys, carry on please..

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promises fix people you love sometimes
like heroin, they always start with small...
and it is always too much they want after.
i never gave any..
well, at least i don't remember that for good*
except my "beautifull self" of cource
love yourself.
slow decay could be so romantic sometimes
all the times
like the first kiss...
but you can feed on it all your life
not the long one
stand still and we could make it stop
future is too close to past today...

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wonderfull world you have there...
keep it!

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don't stop this turnaround
one day it will stop anyway, you know
understanding always comes after it is too late to stop understanding...

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now i will be a good boy
i will eat my breakfast
it is always as exciting as it might
who knows
who cares...

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i died long time ago
my body just keeps faking it...


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